Monday, February 25, 2008


I have been wanting God to remove my wrong desires from me and praying to that end. It occurred to me today that He wants me to do right in spite of my wrong desires.

To me that's a lot harder. But not impossible, according to His Word.

I need to look for the way of escape promised in I Cor. 10:13 rather than looking for a way to rationalize having what "I" want.

Monday, February 11, 2008


Some years ago I discovered I was lactose intolerant. I began noticing it when my kids and I began "ice cream Mondays" -- every Monday after school we'd get ice cream somewhere on the way home. And every Monday afternoon I would end up in the bathroom for several hours with diarrhea, stomach cramps, and excessive gas. Finally I made the connection. Afterward I tried and experimented to see how much wiggle room I had. As much as I love ice cream, I began to feel that the results of trying to sneak some in just weren't worth it: the consequences outweighed the pleasure.

My pastor went through a similar experience when he had pancreatitis. He's a skinny guy with a high metabolism. The treatment for pancreatitis was not to eat, so he was pretty miserable for about a week. Sometimes whatever his wife was making would smell so good or he'd be so hungry he get a few bites -- and be rewarded with more pain. He learned that the consequences for giving in to his cravings were not worth it.

What I somehow need to get embedded into my mind is the same truth when it comes to overeating or eating the wrongs things. There are consequences, and they are not worth it. It may take longer to show up in the way of weight gain: the consequences certainly show up in failure to lose.

Why can I not keep those consequences in mind instead of the oh-so-temporary pleasure of something that tastes good?

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Wednesday weigh-in

I'm late! I forgot to post yesterday.

When I weighed yesterday, I was 2 lbs. above last week. :-( But I weighed again this morning and I am 1 lb. below yesterday -- but I haven't done anything special so I think it's just fluctuations. I've been up and down the same 4 lbs. for weeks now. I'll make wise food choices or deny myself something occasionally, but obviously not as much as I need to.

I've had to keep one leg elevated due to a little cellulitis: it's much better now, though not completely healed. But that took out even the average daily movement.

I need to get back on track somehow.